[ He knows that the other Russian had been very elusive around the place, but he didn't expect this to happen. It didn't sit right with him. Especially since he had no clue it had happened until he saw the board. Maybe he should have been a bit more proactive about harassing the teen.
Though, it isn't the worst, either. It's good that Yuri is home and able to get back to skating and doing what he needs to do. He'd eventually see him again, but he had to admit, having him here was also extremely refreshing. ]
That explained the mood. Yuri had been rather hard to get into contact with and he had notice a fair amount of silence on his end but he always figured it was because Yuri wanted space. It wasn't as if Yuri particularly clung or wanted to be around Viktor and him. But to know that it was because he had gone back home... ]
It's better that he's home, isn't it?
[ Yuuri says softly. He thinks back to the first week they were here and how Yuuri had told Viktor not to get too comfortable. This is what he had meant. ]
[ True that it is better that he is at home, but at the same time, what JJ said to him on the ice that one day struck a bad cord with him. They won't remember this place, is what he's been told.
Maybe it really would be best if they got home as fast as possible and left this place without forging too deep of memories and feelings.
But that was impossible for Viktor. He couldn't just stop living because of the chance of going home and forgetting all of this that he's shared with Yuuri and everyone else. In the chance that Yuuri hadn't heard that detail, he's not going to mention it. This wasn't something that he'd need to share. ]
It is. I just didn't expect it so soon.
[ With that, he is going to shift his position on the couch and gently guide Makkachin away from Yuuri so he can properly greet him. Perhaps there is a bit of a sulk from the pup, but also an understanding of Viktor's current emotions. Viktor gently reaches out to place both hands on Yuuri's cheeks and presses their foreheads together.
With this, he also realizes that there is no certainty on how long they'll be there. All he can hope is that at the end he's able to go home at the same time as Yuuri. Or, at least, he isn't leaving Yuuri alone in a place like this. It wouldn't feel right. ]
Sometimes that happens. [ Yuuri thinks back to Yona who had quite the turn around herself with Hak. One moment she had mentioned that he was there and then the next he was gone. While Yuri was not exactly the same level of importance to him as Hak was to Yona, he still affected by it.
But Viktor's reaction was rather suspicious. He knew that Yuri and him were far closer than either one of them would have lead on, but Viktor was clinging to Yuuri as if the "Yuri" that had left, was him and not the other one. Was he worried about how either one of them would leave before the other?
Admittedly, that was something that Yuuri didn't spend too much time thinking about because he didn't want to imagine what it'd be like without Viktor here with him. ]
But, it'll be okay, Viktor.
[ Yuuri takes their physical intimacy a bit farther by moving to be on Viktor's lap. He can feel his ear tips grow hot from his actions but he hoped that this would make things better. He had never really had to comfort Viktor in this manner before but he knows how much he loved to touch him. ] I'll be here.
[ Viktor would be lying if he said the intimacy and boldness of Yuuri didn't help soothe his worries and heart. Casually, his arms wrap around Yuuri's waist and he holds him close.
For as much as that does comfort him, he does have to remind Yuuri of words that he spoke almost immediately on their arrival here. ]
That's not something you can promise.
[ Maybe it's stubborn of him to do that and it's not his normal optimistic type of thing to say or feel, but it is something that Yuuri had initially pointed out and he's going to remind him of that and let him know how it felt to be told that when trying to say something this important. Childish? Yeah, it most certainly is. But that's Viktor for you. ]
[ He doesn't need to remind him of it too much because it's something that he remembers as well. Viktor had been so upset during that time and Yuuri had been so adamant about how they shouldn't get too comfortable with how things were. He still feels that way but he has allowed himself to fall into a sort of pace.
Resting his head against Viktor, he'll clarify what he had meant. Hopefully all of this would be enough. If it wasn't, Yuuri wouldn't know what he would do. Viktor was usually the one consoling him than the other way around. ]
Right now—I'll be here right now.
[ Since that's what he could promise to Viktor. For this moment right now, he was here with Viktor and if by some reason either one of them vanished... ]
And I'll be there too.
[ For whenever they would both go back...at the same time or not. ]
[ This does help ease his heart. He closes his eyes and just soaks up that feeling, letting out a quiet sigh. Those thoughts aren't just going to disappear, but he shouldn't dwell on them, either.
The fact is, Yuuri's right. He has him here now and there isn't a reason to waste any precious time with him. And... even if they don't remember, they have home. The issue they had when they first arrived, well, that'll still be there, but he has faith that their bond won't break that easily. Yuuri is his one certainty he doesn't want to let go of now that he has him there. ]
I'll keep you to that.
[ Even if they don't get back at the same time, he can rest assured that time would be on pause at home and they won't lose any of the time they're meant to have together, at least. That's something he can hold onto. ]
[ Yuuri doesn't say anything to that—he had wanted to have Viktor say the same about himself but he didn't. It would have been the same and while Yuuri had been reserved and uncertain of the depths of his own feelings, that hadn't been the case for Viktor. Viktor had fallen for him so deeply.
It was almost unfair to Viktor to have to wait for Yuuri to play catch-up. The flush on his face still remains but he'll place a hand onto Viktor's head and begin to card his hands through Viktor's hair. It was so fine and well cared for. ]
Did you spend the entire time I was at work upset over this?
[ There's humor in his voice but Yuuri also knows that there was no way that Viktor would have wasted the better half of the day over something like this. Or, well, he hoped that was the case. ]
[ It was made pretty apparent at the start that Viktor would be here for Yuuri and wouldn't just disappear. That he'd fight against whatever forces tried to take him home first. That's why he doesn't declare it right now. Maybe he should have, but there would be plenty of times that he would say basically the same thing over and over and express it even in everything he does.
But as far as being unfair, that doesn't matter to Viktor. He doesn't see it even slightly unfair. Sure, he can be impatient and pushy, but he doesn't feel like what Yuuri does is unfair. They misunderstand each other and have moments where they have miscommunication, but it's never for the fact that Viktor feels slighted in that way. In the moments where he feels slighted, he makes sure to make it known. All he wants is Yuuri to open up to his emotions at his own pace and he wants to be there to help him along the way. It's like seeing a bud blooming into a beautiful flower. ]
Not the entire time.
[ That's the truth. He had been here thinking for a while, but it certainly wasn't the whole duration of Yuuri being gone. If it had been a longer span of time, he would have considered seeking out Yuuri and harassing him. That's just how he is. ]
[ Good, Viktor hadn't spent too long obsessing over that; he would have expected to be bothered in one way or another if he had. Yuuri, however, still continues to run his hand through Viktor's hair as to help ease any kind of uneasiness that was shared by both of them and was being hidden away.
Moments like these were rare but also slowly becoming something more natural. Sure their status being a little more defined had a huge say in that matter, but maybe they would have gotten here eventually. Maybe. Especially with how sometimes Yuuri would get the urge to want to touch Viktor in the same way that he touched him. ]
[ The hair petting is extremely nice and he could melt against Yuuri and take it all day, to be honest. It was comfortable and soothing and just makes him want to keep cuddling him. ]
I spent the day out looking with Makkachin and getting a few things we needed for dinner.
[ He probably also grabbed something to eat while he was out. Light and small, but that's a given. He watched what he spent and making sure taking up the odd jobs from the task board helped cover his expenses. He wasn't a total mooch. ]
There was a bit of garden cleanup to help with, as well.
did we mean to make this thread into domestic fluff...
[ Maybe one day Yuuri will allow himself to spend an entire day cuddled up with Viktor like this, doing not much more than basking in each other's company and laving one another with simple affections. They certainly had the time to do so...
Maybe. Until then, Yuuri hummed softly at Viktor's reply as he fiddles with a few strands of hair in particular. Yuuri wasn't about to nag Viktor for not finding a ""proper"" job while they were here since the task board did provide a fair amount of income depending on the job. ]
What did you want to make for dinner tonight?
[ This felt so domestic. So settled...was this really a life that he was allowed to have? Did it really suit them? ]
[ Maybe it didn't fully suit them quite yet, but Viktor could honestly see a domestic type of life back home with Yuuri after all things are said and done. One day they would have to retire and he'd love to have a warm and tender private life with Yuuri without any concern of anything else. Maybe even let his cute little piggy enjoy katsudon to the fullest. If it felt right, who cares if it "suited" them according to anyone else. ]
Something pasta.
[ There was a wine that he had gotten while he was out because he'd been offered a sample. Don't worry, he didn't spend a gratuitous amount of money on it and he'd make sure to get more work to help cover that type of cost. But a wine would go well with pasta.
For now, though, his arms tighten just a bit more around Yuuri, not wanting to let him move at all just yet. Let him have this moment. ]
[ Yuuri would go through great lengths if it meant that he would be able to eat katsudon every day, but at the same time it was best to savor the things you liked, right? ]
Do you think you'll need help? [ He wants to add in something about Viktor's cooking skills themselves but he refrains. There was a time to tease Viktor about that and a time where he shouldn't have and right now was one of of those times where he shouldn't be teasing Viktor.
...especially given how there was no back-up dinner plan in motion. Though since Viktor has himself some wine, had this become a "wine and dine" scenario where Viktor is required to whoo Yuuri somehow? Not that he'd need to. ]
[ Also, Yuuri would probably get Viktor harping on him or making comments if he decided to eat katsudon every single day. That would probably get old fast. ]
I don't need the help. [ But he leaves it open if Yuuri wanted to help him. That would be his choice on if he wanted to leave it all up to Viktor or not. It's not like he had a huge meal planned. Probably just boiling some water and making noodles with some sauce on the side. Sure, Viktor wasn't a world class chef, but he probably did cook for himself from time-to-time.
Though, this case isn't a "wine and dine" experience. It's just that he has wine and they'll be dining. It's more along the lines of domestic life together. ]
[ Domestic unrest caused by Yuuri's love for katsudon... Who would have known?
But Viktor's open-ended reply gets Yuuri to consider his options. Typically he would go to help Viktor with their meals even if he was tired from work because he thought to himself that he was never too tired to not help out. Being a barista was nothing compared to spending upwards of four hours on the ice training and practicing.
However, this time he'll let himself have this. It seemed fitting to allow this given everything else. ]
Yuuri settling in like this doesn't help Viktor with motivation to get up from the couch anytime soon, though. No, he won't neglect dinner, but he wants to savor this tender moment for just a little longer. He feels really at peace like this. ]
Do you want me to start cooking right now?
[ Because, honestly, he's fine with doing it whenever. ]
Yuuri debates Viktor's question for another moment or two before he answers. He could eat right now but he also don't quite want to let Viktor go. It's such a silly feeling, one that he's pretty sure that Viktor has sometimes given how attached he is to Yuuri, but he can't help it. He was allowed to be clingy too. ]
You can if you want; I'm not too hungry yet.
[ The reply comes with Yuuri borrowing against Viktor some. ]
It's nice to be wanted like that, too. It'd be nice if Yuuri vocalized it a bit more often, but it also didn't bother Viktor not to hear it since he's allowed to stay by his side and he'll be staying by his side for as long as he can.
With the burrowing, there's no way that Viktor is going to push him away and start cooking now. Instead, it just encourages him to settle in even more. ]
[ As they settle against on another Yuuri can't help but let his mind wander a bit. Generally his thoughts are fleeting and harmless but there is one that sticks out to him. ]
What if we were trapped here for over a year, Viktor?
[ Yuuri knows that in the beginning he had been extremely adamant about treating everything as temporary and not to get attached to anything here, but given all of the people he has talked to...
At what point do things stop being "temporary" and start to move into the permanent territory? ]
[ Viktor made it very clear that he has no problems settling in here during that time and have a life with Yuuri away from their home. His arms tighten around Yuuri and he gives him a very gently nuzzle. ]
We have a home, we have Makkachin. There are people we've met here that have been kind. I don't see a problem with living here and making the most we can. It isn't like it's our choice of when we do or don't get to go home, so why fight it or think too much about it?
[ Which is probably a bit surprising considering he was mulling over the fact that Yuri had gone home and it triggered a worry that one of them could be left here without the other. But the statement presented also sounded like that they'll both be here together until the other one leaves, as well. That hypothetical situation he has no qualms over. ]
We still have out skating and no one will be missing us at home. There's so many new things we can learn and do here that we can't do at home. I want to embrace that.
[ On some level, Viktor's answer gives Yuuri some degree of comfort. Certainly his affections and the way he holds him helps to ease the worries that had been creeping up, however it doesn't really help him feel satisfied with how to deal with what they've been dealt with. ]
Wouldn't that cheapen things, Viktor? [ Yuuri casually replies without much thought or hesitation. ] If we...built ourselves something here and then leave it all behind once we went back.
[ Because everything here was just all temporary. Once they left here then that would be the end of it. The home they have here. The space that they've created here between the two (three) of them. Yuuri doesn't regret allowing himself to settle down a bit but— ]
[ Sorry, but he doesn't understand this line of thinking, to be honest. Isn't this what people technically do even back where they're from? ]
Homes aren't permanent at home, either. With that line of thinking, nobody should make a home for themselves until they're certain they're going to be in the same place their entire life or that the places they had before were "fake."
[ At least, that's what he's getting out of this conversation. Isn't it one of those "home is where your rug rests" type of thing? They can have many different homes, no matter how temporary it would be. ]
Wouldn't it be more awful and dismissive of the people here if we only did things halfhearted? Living to the fullest would give them the emotions they need to rebuild this world. I think it's actually a lovely idea of leaving as big of an impression as we can. It means we really made a difference.
[ And this is where things start to fall apart. Yuuri understands what Viktor is saying and he's not wrong in his thinking or the point he's trying to make. However, the fact of the matter was that he wasn't seeing Yuuri's view and somehow that kind of made sense. Viktor probably never had a "home" as Yuuri did. ]
Are you saying you wouldn't want to settle down somewhere, Viktor?
[ To Yuuri "homes" have always been a place to return to whenever something was over. No matter how tired or where they'd go—"home" would always be waiting for them and a place of comfort. He's heard of people thinking their "homes" as people, but Yuuri couldn't really see that.
"Home" had been his room in Yutopia—in Hasetsu... It had been where he grew up and where he felt the most comfortable. Being by Viktor's side was starting to feel a little more like home but it wasn't quite the same. Not yet. ]
Even if we put everything into what we have here, there'll be none of it left for us when we go back. It'll be as if we weren't even here.
That's not what I'm saying. I'm only saying that a place you might settle in could end up being temporary anyway.
[ Not everyone lives in the same place their entire life. People move, things change, life happens. While he doesn't mind the idea of being "rooted" in one spot with Yuuri, he also doesn't like the idea of being inflexible to change. So, for him, living to the fullest in your current environment and being as comfortable there as possible is what matters most. ]
When I was staying with you in Japan, that wasn't ever going to be my main home, but even for the temporary amount of time, I made it my home as much as possible. When I go back to Russia, there won't be anything left, but it'll still feel like a home to me, regardless.
[ It's a given that he'd have to go back to Russia if he was to continue on with his skating career, but this is probably the first time they've talked about him no longer actually being in Japan anymore. ]
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[ He knows that the other Russian had been very elusive around the place, but he didn't expect this to happen. It didn't sit right with him. Especially since he had no clue it had happened until he saw the board. Maybe he should have been a bit more proactive about harassing the teen.
Though, it isn't the worst, either. It's good that Yuri is home and able to get back to skating and doing what he needs to do. He'd eventually see him again, but he had to admit, having him here was also extremely refreshing. ]
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That explained the mood. Yuri had been rather hard to get into contact with and he had notice a fair amount of silence on his end but he always figured it was because Yuri wanted space. It wasn't as if Yuri particularly clung or wanted to be around Viktor and him. But to know that it was because he had gone back home... ]
It's better that he's home, isn't it?
[ Yuuri says softly. He thinks back to the first week they were here and how Yuuri had told Viktor not to get too comfortable. This is what he had meant. ]
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Maybe it really would be best if they got home as fast as possible and left this place without forging too deep of memories and feelings.
But that was impossible for Viktor. He couldn't just stop living because of the chance of going home and forgetting all of this that he's shared with Yuuri and everyone else. In the chance that Yuuri hadn't heard that detail, he's not going to mention it. This wasn't something that he'd need to share. ]
It is. I just didn't expect it so soon.
[ With that, he is going to shift his position on the couch and gently guide Makkachin away from Yuuri so he can properly greet him. Perhaps there is a bit of a sulk from the pup, but also an understanding of Viktor's current emotions. Viktor gently reaches out to place both hands on Yuuri's cheeks and presses their foreheads together.
With this, he also realizes that there is no certainty on how long they'll be there. All he can hope is that at the end he's able to go home at the same time as Yuuri. Or, at least, he isn't leaving Yuuri alone in a place like this. It wouldn't feel right. ]
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But Viktor's reaction was rather suspicious. He knew that Yuri and him were far closer than either one of them would have lead on, but Viktor was clinging to Yuuri as if the "Yuri" that had left, was him and not the other one. Was he worried about how either one of them would leave before the other?
Admittedly, that was something that Yuuri didn't spend too much time thinking about because he didn't want to imagine what it'd be like without Viktor here with him. ]
But, it'll be okay, Viktor.
[ Yuuri takes their physical intimacy a bit farther by moving to be on Viktor's lap. He can feel his ear tips grow hot from his actions but he hoped that this would make things better. He had never really had to comfort Viktor in this manner before but he knows how much he loved to touch him. ] I'll be here.
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For as much as that does comfort him, he does have to remind Yuuri of words that he spoke almost immediately on their arrival here. ]
That's not something you can promise.
[ Maybe it's stubborn of him to do that and it's not his normal optimistic type of thing to say or feel, but it is something that Yuuri had initially pointed out and he's going to remind him of that and let him know how it felt to be told that when trying to say something this important. Childish? Yeah, it most certainly is. But that's Viktor for you. ]
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Resting his head against Viktor, he'll clarify what he had meant. Hopefully all of this would be enough. If it wasn't, Yuuri wouldn't know what he would do. Viktor was usually the one consoling him than the other way around. ]
Right now—I'll be here right now.
[ Since that's what he could promise to Viktor. For this moment right now, he was here with Viktor and if by some reason either one of them vanished... ]
And I'll be there too.
[ For whenever they would both go back...at the same time or not. ]
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The fact is, Yuuri's right. He has him here now and there isn't a reason to waste any precious time with him. And... even if they don't remember, they have home. The issue they had when they first arrived, well, that'll still be there, but he has faith that their bond won't break that easily. Yuuri is his one certainty he doesn't want to let go of now that he has him there. ]
I'll keep you to that.
[ Even if they don't get back at the same time, he can rest assured that time would be on pause at home and they won't lose any of the time they're meant to have together, at least. That's something he can hold onto. ]
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It was almost unfair to Viktor to have to wait for Yuuri to play catch-up. The flush on his face still remains but he'll place a hand onto Viktor's head and begin to card his hands through Viktor's hair. It was so fine and well cared for. ]
Did you spend the entire time I was at work upset over this?
[ There's humor in his voice but Yuuri also knows that there was no way that Viktor would have wasted the better half of the day over something like this. Or, well, he hoped that was the case. ]
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But as far as being unfair, that doesn't matter to Viktor. He doesn't see it even slightly unfair. Sure, he can be impatient and pushy, but he doesn't feel like what Yuuri does is unfair. They misunderstand each other and have moments where they have miscommunication, but it's never for the fact that Viktor feels slighted in that way. In the moments where he feels slighted, he makes sure to make it known. All he wants is Yuuri to open up to his emotions at his own pace and he wants to be there to help him along the way. It's like seeing a bud blooming into a beautiful flower. ]
Not the entire time.
[ That's the truth. He had been here thinking for a while, but it certainly wasn't the whole duration of Yuuri being gone. If it had been a longer span of time, he would have considered seeking out Yuuri and harassing him. That's just how he is. ]
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[ Good, Viktor hadn't spent too long obsessing over that; he would have expected to be bothered in one way or another if he had. Yuuri, however, still continues to run his hand through Viktor's hair as to help ease any kind of uneasiness that was shared by both of them and was being hidden away.
Moments like these were rare but also slowly becoming something more natural. Sure their status being a little more defined had a huge say in that matter, but maybe they would have gotten here eventually. Maybe. Especially with how sometimes Yuuri would get the urge to want to touch Viktor in the same way that he touched him. ]
Was it a busy schedule?
[ He teases lightly. ]
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I spent the day out looking with Makkachin and getting a few things we needed for dinner.
[ He probably also grabbed something to eat while he was out. Light and small, but that's a given. He watched what he spent and making sure taking up the odd jobs from the task board helped cover his expenses. He wasn't a total mooch. ]
There was a bit of garden cleanup to help with, as well.
did we mean to make this thread into domestic fluff...
[ Maybe one day Yuuri will allow himself to spend an entire day cuddled up with Viktor like this, doing not much more than basking in each other's company and laving one another with simple affections. They certainly had the time to do so...
Maybe. Until then, Yuuri hummed softly at Viktor's reply as he fiddles with a few strands of hair in particular. Yuuri wasn't about to nag Viktor for not finding a ""proper"" job while they were here since the task board did provide a fair amount of income depending on the job. ]
What did you want to make for dinner tonight?
[ This felt so domestic. So settled...was this really a life that he was allowed to have? Did it really suit them? ]
no but it sure did happen
Something pasta.
[ There was a wine that he had gotten while he was out because he'd been offered a sample. Don't worry, he didn't spend a gratuitous amount of money on it and he'd make sure to get more work to help cover that type of cost. But a wine would go well with pasta.
For now, though, his arms tighten just a bit more around Yuuri, not wanting to let him move at all just yet. Let him have this moment. ]
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Do you think you'll need help? [ He wants to add in something about Viktor's cooking skills themselves but he refrains. There was a time to tease Viktor about that and a time where he shouldn't have and right now was one of of those times where he shouldn't be teasing Viktor.
...especially given how there was no back-up dinner plan in motion. Though since Viktor has himself some wine, had this become a "wine and dine" scenario where Viktor is required to whoo Yuuri somehow? Not that he'd need to. ]
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I don't need the help. [ But he leaves it open if Yuuri wanted to help him. That would be his choice on if he wanted to leave it all up to Viktor or not. It's not like he had a huge meal planned. Probably just boiling some water and making noodles with some sauce on the side. Sure, Viktor wasn't a world class chef, but he probably did cook for himself from time-to-time.
Though, this case isn't a "wine and dine" experience. It's just that he has wine and they'll be dining. It's more along the lines of domestic life together. ]
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But Viktor's open-ended reply gets Yuuri to consider his options. Typically he would go to help Viktor with their meals even if he was tired from work because he thought to himself that he was never too tired to not help out. Being a barista was nothing compared to spending upwards of four hours on the ice training and practicing.
However, this time he'll let himself have this. It seemed fitting to allow this given everything else. ]
Then I'll take your spot on the couch.
[ His tone playful and he closes his eyes. ]
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Yuuri settling in like this doesn't help Viktor with motivation to get up from the couch anytime soon, though. No, he won't neglect dinner, but he wants to savor this tender moment for just a little longer. He feels really at peace like this. ]
Do you want me to start cooking right now?
[ Because, honestly, he's fine with doing it whenever. ]
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Yuuri debates Viktor's question for another moment or two before he answers. He could eat right now but he also don't quite want to let Viktor go. It's such a silly feeling, one that he's pretty sure that Viktor has sometimes given how attached he is to Yuuri, but he can't help it. He was allowed to be clingy too. ]
You can if you want; I'm not too hungry yet.
[ The reply comes with Yuuri borrowing against Viktor some. ]
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It's nice to be wanted like that, too. It'd be nice if Yuuri vocalized it a bit more often, but it also didn't bother Viktor not to hear it since he's allowed to stay by his side and he'll be staying by his side for as long as he can.
With the burrowing, there's no way that Viktor is going to push him away and start cooking now. Instead, it just encourages him to settle in even more. ]
Then we can wait for a little bit.
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What if we were trapped here for over a year, Viktor?
[ Yuuri knows that in the beginning he had been extremely adamant about treating everything as temporary and not to get attached to anything here, but given all of the people he has talked to...
At what point do things stop being "temporary" and start to move into the permanent territory? ]
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[ Viktor made it very clear that he has no problems settling in here during that time and have a life with Yuuri away from their home. His arms tighten around Yuuri and he gives him a very gently nuzzle. ]
We have a home, we have Makkachin. There are people we've met here that have been kind. I don't see a problem with living here and making the most we can. It isn't like it's our choice of when we do or don't get to go home, so why fight it or think too much about it?
[ Which is probably a bit surprising considering he was mulling over the fact that Yuri had gone home and it triggered a worry that one of them could be left here without the other. But the statement presented also sounded like that they'll both be here together until the other one leaves, as well. That hypothetical situation he has no qualms over. ]
We still have out skating and no one will be missing us at home. There's so many new things we can learn and do here that we can't do at home. I want to embrace that.
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Wouldn't that cheapen things, Viktor? [ Yuuri casually replies without much thought or hesitation. ] If we...built ourselves something here and then leave it all behind once we went back.
[ Because everything here was just all temporary. Once they left here then that would be the end of it. The home they have here. The space that they've created here between the two (three) of them. Yuuri doesn't regret allowing himself to settle down a bit but— ]
Doesn't it all seem kind of fake?
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[ Sorry, but he doesn't understand this line of thinking, to be honest. Isn't this what people technically do even back where they're from? ]
Homes aren't permanent at home, either. With that line of thinking, nobody should make a home for themselves until they're certain they're going to be in the same place their entire life or that the places they had before were "fake."
[ At least, that's what he's getting out of this conversation. Isn't it one of those "home is where your rug rests" type of thing? They can have many different homes, no matter how temporary it would be. ]
Wouldn't it be more awful and dismissive of the people here if we only did things halfhearted? Living to the fullest would give them the emotions they need to rebuild this world. I think it's actually a lovely idea of leaving as big of an impression as we can. It means we really made a difference.
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Are you saying you wouldn't want to settle down somewhere, Viktor?
[ To Yuuri "homes" have always been a place to return to whenever something was over. No matter how tired or where they'd go—"home" would always be waiting for them and a place of comfort. He's heard of people thinking their "homes" as people, but Yuuri couldn't really see that.
"Home" had been his room in Yutopia—in Hasetsu... It had been where he grew up and where he felt the most comfortable. Being by Viktor's side was starting to feel a little more like home but it wasn't quite the same. Not yet. ]
Even if we put everything into what we have here, there'll be none of it left for us when we go back. It'll be as if we weren't even here.
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[ Not everyone lives in the same place their entire life. People move, things change, life happens. While he doesn't mind the idea of being "rooted" in one spot with Yuuri, he also doesn't like the idea of being inflexible to change. So, for him, living to the fullest in your current environment and being as comfortable there as possible is what matters most. ]
When I was staying with you in Japan, that wasn't ever going to be my main home, but even for the temporary amount of time, I made it my home as much as possible. When I go back to Russia, there won't be anything left, but it'll still feel like a home to me, regardless.
[ It's a given that he'd have to go back to Russia if he was to continue on with his skating career, but this is probably the first time they've talked about him no longer actually being in Japan anymore. ]
Or is that "fake" to you, too?
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